Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Wednesday, 19 August 2020

तुम तो ख़ुदा हो

 

तू तो ख़ुदा  है, तेरे लिए तो सब आसान है ना
यूँ तो अपने लिए मैंने कभी कुछ माँगा नहीं
आज माँगूँ तो तो दोगे ना?
मेरी बेटी मुझे हँसता देख के हंसती है
उसकी ख़ुशी का कोई कारण नहीं होता
मुझे भी ऐसी बेबाक हंसी दे दो
हाँ, जानती हूँ , मुझे भी दी होगी तुमने
लेकिन मुझसे खो गयी है कहीं, तुम वापस दोगे ना?
तुम तो ख़ुदा हो, तुम्हारे लिए तो सब आसान है ना

मेरी बेटी बिलकुल नहीं रोती
वो रोती है जब उसे भूख लगती है
या जब उसको नींद आती है
मेरा पेट भरा है और नींद भी पूरी है
फिर क्यों मुझे ज़रा सी बात पे रोना आता है
मुझको यूँ हमेशा खुश रहना सीखा दो ना
हाँ, जानती हूँ ,मुझको भी सिखाया होगा तुमने
लेकिन मैं भूल गयी हूँ, तुम वापस से सिखाओगे ना?
तुम तो ख़ुदा हो, तुम्हारे लिए तो सब आसान है ना


मेरी बेटी बाहें खोल के सोती है
कभी कभी छोटी सी आहात से उठ जाती है
मगर फिर चैन से सो जाती है
मुझे यूँ बाहें खोल के सोना बता दो ना,
हाँ, जानती हूँ ,मुझे भी बताया होगा तुमने
लेकिन अब मुझे नहीं आता है , तुम मुझे वापस से बताओगे ना?
तुम तो ख़ुदा हो, तुम्हारे लिए तो सब आसान है ना

Saturday, 24 May 2014

Faisla thik tha..

Ek chhota sa kaam kaha tha usko ik roz
Aur usne hans kar taal diya tha
Fir jab naaraz ho kar maine baat karna band kar diya tha
To maafi to maang li thi lekin kaam fir bhi nhi kiya

Kaam aisa nhi tha ke karna hi pade
Lekin, zaruri tha mere liye
Uske liye
Usko zindagi mei aage badhne ke liye

Fir kuch mahinon baad maine fir jab usko yaad dilaya
Fir bhi usne taal diya
Maine fir se naraz hoke bola 'mohabbat nhi hai na tumko mujhse jo itni si baat nhi maante'
Usne fir maafi maangi
Lekin baat aayi gayi hi reh gayi..

Aaj achanak itne saalon ke baad kuch dekha maine..

Mera wohi kaam... aaj kar diya usne

Nhi, koi ghum nhi mujhe
Kisi aur ke kehne pe kiya hoga
Ya khud se hi kiya hoga
Ya aaj sahi samay aa gaya hoga uska
Shayad zindagi mei ruka hua sa kuch chal pada hoga
Mai khush hu uske liye...
Magar aaj aisa laga mujhe

Shayad, alag hone ka faisla thik tha..

Tuesday, 7 January 2014

He is no more mine and I'll miss him..

So friends and followers here is my first post of the year and I never thought it would be so emotional and so heartbreaking. Life is a challenge, we all feel happy and sad. I never posted anything directly that is effecting my mental peace so badly. And yes you guessed its right its about love. My lost love.
Love which could not be mine..

On third day of this year I came across a news which broke my heart. I could not control my emotions. I cried hard.

One of my friend sent me a pic on WhatsApp and said:

Friend : Buddy, John ne shadi kar li is se :D
Mee : :'( Aisa nhi ho sakta buddy, keh do ke ye jhooth hai
Friend : Sorry par ye sach hai dost. John even tweeted this.
Mee: Sab shadi kar lenge buddy to mera kya hoga. Mai John ke siwa kisi ke baare mei soch bhi nhi paungi.
Friend: Don't worry. Everything will be all right.
Mee: He should've informed me. Uski khushi hi to meri khushi hai. Usne kabhi mujhe apna samjha hi nhi buddy.

Then our conversation went on and on. But his words were not giving me consolation. I was sad. I was frustrated. I was broken. I couldn't accept the fact that the person whom I love the most, is no more with me.

I knew we couldn't be together. But atleast he was mine. If he told me that he wants to marry and is happy with someone else. I would've made myself strong to hear this news.

Even after hearing this news, I didn't have courage to google if this news is true or just a rumor.

I was sad. I was depressed. I was not ready to accept it.

In the evening of same day another friend pinged and asked 'John ne shadi kar li, aap gaye the ya nhi'. 

And I was shattered. I have not replied to this message even today. :(

Next day my dad also said, John Abrahim ne shadi kar li.
I said: Haan, padha maine.
Mom: Kis se?
Mee: Koi Priya se.
Mom: Bipasha se to mana hi kar diya tha. Kar li, chalo ki toh kam se kam.

My senses stopped working, I dont know who said what after that.

All I know is that my heart is crying since then.

I will miss you John!! :'(

Monday, 4 November 2013

Zarurat

Na mohabbat ho
Na ibadat ho
Ab zarurat ho
Tum, humari

Na likh paaye hain
Na likh payeyenge
Wo chahat ho
 Tum, humari

 Itni dooriyan
Fir bhi aas pass ho
Jaise aawaz ho
Tum, humari

Har pal mei shareek
Har ek ehsas mei
Jaise ab saans ho
Tum, humari

Kitna bachte hain
Fir bhi mujhmein baaki
Ab nazar ho
Tum, humari

Mere har ashaa'r
mei jiska zikr ho
Wo raaz-wo baat ho
Tum, humari

 Mujhmein shaamil
Fir bhi meri nhi
Wo dhadkan ho
Tum, humari

Meri aankhon mei
Sajti-bikharti-behti
Ab zindagi ho
Tum, humari

Tuesday, 12 February 2013

Ibaadat ho jaye


Likh de agar afsaana-e-dil khuda jaane kya qayamat ho jaye,
Tera hi tas'savur ho aur har ehsaas tere naam ho jaye..



Rubaru ho aaine k aur tere kareeb hone ki aahat ho jaye,
Tujhe chhune ki koshish mei fir khud se mohabbat ho jaye..



Jo mehsus krte hain tere liye keh dein agar teri ijazat ho jaye,
Shamil ho gar marzi bhi teri, meri adni si mohabbat ibaadat ho jaye...